Happy Mother’s Day

 

Yesterday was mothers day and I was trying my best to be normal, to be okay…
I didn’t log into Facebook or Twitter just so that I could avoid all those posts by my friends about their Mom’s. But then I told myself that I can’t just hide from the world, I can’t just pretend that I am totally fine,I can’t just lie to myself that I don’t miss my mom because I did miss her in fact I felt like my heart was aching….

Yesterday every single second reminded me of my mom. The way she used to get all excited about what me and my sister got for her and then how she used to scold us after opening her present “Why do you spend so much money on these kind of things? I have you both that’s the biggest gift God gave me. I don’t need all these things.”
Moms are always like that..
“Don’t do this, don’t do that, don’t spend money on useless things…”
But now I don’t have anyone to tell me what to do and what not to do, what to buy and what not to buy…
It’s weird that when people leave they take a part of you with them.
Because of that missing part you’re not yourself anymore.
I miss you mama.
I wish I had a chance to say goodbye to you, I wish I had a chance to tell you that I love you and I wish I could tell you that you make me strong.

You’re gone too soon..

You might not be here with me but you’ll always be alive in my heart…
Happy Mothers Day Mama.

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It’s Okay To Be Sad

    When I’m sad I don’t want people to tell me that “it’s going to be okay”, “move on with your life”, “time is a great healer”, “to be strong” and stuff like that. I want someone to hold me tight and tell me that it’s never going to be the same , it’s not going to be okay, I want someone to tell me that it’s okay to not be okay, I want someone to tell me that my scars will never fade and that I have to learn to live with them, I want someone to tell me that it’s okay to be weak sometimes, it’s okay to cry, its okay to break down, it’s okay if your world falls apart, I want someone to tell me that it’s okay to be sad.

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